Undeniably, love is an element of life. It is an essential part of growth which is imparted into everone’s souls. With that, I actually have (had) a target at hand. Then my friends told me that she already had a boyfriend a month ago, which her mother doesn’t support. My feelings broke and i definitely felt down at the moment. I started to think:” This is only the start. It doesn’t determine the rest of everything. “. What say I wait and see. If things go on, I might actually lose out a lot. Who sure am I that they will break off? It really shetters my feelings. I kept on thinking and thinking. Is it worthwile for me to continue setting feelings towards her? Will I be wasting my time and energy by thinking about her and still caring about her when i know that I do not have the chance anymore? But deep down in my heart I realize I really do love her. How can I just throw away my feelings this way? Feelings build up over time and they don’t just go away in a snap. I can’t stop thinking about her! It is like the whole damn world is about her and she won’t be with me…that just makes the whole world look so grey. I cannot deny the fact that I love her. I cannot escape from that fact even though I tell myself not to. I mean reality wise we should move on with life when hope is down. The earth orbits without stopping. I would really just jump out from my house and run to her place just to tel her that I love her. But, is it worthwhile? I just can’t stop thinking about her! My mind revolves around her face which just smiles at me, i don’t know smiling at me stupidly or jeeringly. It is so frustrating!! Tell me what to do !!!!! I just love her too much!!!!!! I can’t just let her go like that!